cry cos of you

Again....


I being a stupid girl...

I wanna cry.

Just for tonight...

Nobody know.

I keep on searching but I couldn't find you.

but the faith show me.

Night after night.

Day after day.

Just keep back the feel.

after tonight I will be back on me.

Put it in heart that some place I couldn't find that. 

cry cos of  you.

Feeling so hard

Between the two of us, you lose more: 

because perhaps I'll love others the way I loved you, 

but nobody will love you the way I did.

Is true: You will never know. In my heart deeply

I just a woman  who loving a man.

I tell  the stupid woman, just let him go.

But once again, I thinking about this.

I still love you that is the only reason I can't let you go.

no ones like you can make me feels this way.

For the man I love,

just keep your way that you living,

treat me as you want.

I will be stand on the same point . 

Maybe one day you will staring me back

or maybe even never.

I promises to the stupid woman,

don't ever do that anymore.

no more next time.

It's showing how stupid I am.

I can't rush you out of my heart , my mind and my soul.

Is tearing me day by day.

Can I cry.?

Yes,

I can.

:'(

Thanks LUCK

Today I feel happy + sad + lucky .

Is totally complicated feeling :(

Last night, I sleeping while crying without any reasons,

I really hope that I can meet him suddenly.

I wishing with my true heart.

Today, lucky star is shinning on my side,

It's brings him to beside me.

I saw his best friend was around me at Yasmeen ,

I hoping he will follow up with his friend eat breakfast.

Yasmeen Restaurant is total full of consumers.

then,  FINALLY I saw him leave the restaurant. 

I line up half way to buy food.

I can't stop my heart beat, my mind thinking,

I just straight away leave the place.

Seeing him sitting Lego's seat. 

Lego's seat also fulled .

I just walked around and get a place

the place that can watch him clearly but was not obvious.

I forgot to buy my breakfast.

and I staring him until he finished his breakfast.

watching him leaving the place.

My heart feeling that can't explain .

I just thanks to the lucky star giving me a chance to meet him again.

After that, I did some crazy thing that I never do before.

Shhh.........

It will be a secret for me.

STUPID me.

I won't tell anyone. =x

The hardest part of loving is when you can only

 view the person you love from a distance

 and not being able to hold his hand, embrace him tight

 cause for him you're only his friend..

Maybe you are not even his friend.

:'(

I miss you badly

I miss you badly,

how did I do that can makes myself feel better,

I just miss you but I can't find you,

I CAN'T do anything.

my heart feel pain and pain deeply .

that just only simple thing that I can't do also.

watching others friends doing a simple thing with their love.

seeing them talking like friend, smile happily.

I just useless,

and can't CRY also .

I'm stupid 

I just hope that I can meet you anywhere,

that's enough for me to watch you secretly and silently 

don't know why I feel sad 

when I see the message you sent me.

It's hurt.

Can I talk to you?

Am I annoying you ?

:'(